My
Quest
Yesterday
I found myself looking upto questions like Who am i? Where do i come from?
Whom do i belong to? Who shall i be associated with? Why am i here? What am i
supposed to be like? What should i do so that i fulfill my purpose? How should
i do it?
So many questions keep on popping up in my mind all the time when i think about "Me", a mere 2 letter word... simplest form of sight words taught in kindergarten, a word which is the foundation of learning in pre-school years. So simple yet so complicated... The meaning is easy but difficult to understand...
To make my quest a little easier, i asked myself where do i belong? Hoping that this will make it easy for me to understand that who i am. Am i the regular happening, party goer, chilled out kinda girl or am i the career oriented, ambitious, modern, aspiring woman or am i a traditional, cultured, obedient girl or am i an unconventional, spiritual person??? So many questions about Me but yet to find an answer...
There are some days when I feel that I belong to things that I like doing and then there are days when I believe that I belong to things that I want to become. Some moments I feel that my past experiences define me and in the other moments I feel I am defined by the design that I have created of my future. Sometimes I derive recognition about self by the people whom I am associated with and other times people who come to me to sort their problems help me understand myself better. I am sure everyone reading this can somewhere relate to these lines.
When one sets onto the path of discovering
self, zillion thoughts of such kinds crosses one's mind continuously. However,
facing such thoughts isn’t difficult but the ability to decode the clue behind
each thought is.
Just as I started screening each thought and decode them, I felt as if why do I need to decide who I am? Why do I need to belong to anything? Why should I be like something? The answer was simple to understand but difficult to live. So many times in our lives we forget to ‘live’ because we forget to ‘feel’. We seldom 'feel' but always 'think' because we put our heart aside and let our mind do all the working. Thoughts about competition, peer pressure, social pressure, goals, aspirations, future, career, social status and likes always haunts our mind. We do stop our heart from feeling the admiration for others behind the feeling of competition, we overlook friendship behind the peer pressure, we ignore the love behind social pressure, personal admiration behind goals & aspirations and hope behind future planning. Ultimately we miss out on the real emotions at the core and give importance to the end thought.
So lets take a moment, think a little deeper, close our eyes, relish
the silence because there is no way we cannot reach out our real self than reaching our own heart, ‘the place where we belong’.
Keep Smiling and Keep Loving !!!
