My
Quest
Yesterday
I found myself looking upto questions like Who am i? Where do i come from?
Whom do i belong to? Who shall i be associated with? Why am i here? What am i
supposed to be like? What should i do so that i fulfill my purpose? How should
i do it?
So many questions keep on popping up in my mind all the time when i think about "Me", a mere 2 letter word... simplest form of sight words taught in kindergarten, a word which is the foundation of learning in pre-school years. So simple yet so complicated... The meaning is easy but difficult to understand...
To make my quest a little easier, i asked myself where do i belong? Hoping that this will make it easy for me to understand that who i am. Am i the regular happening, party goer, chilled out kinda girl or am i the career oriented, ambitious, modern, aspiring woman or am i a traditional, cultured, obedient girl or am i an unconventional, spiritual person??? So many questions about Me but yet to find an answer...
There are some days when I feel that I belong to things that I like doing and then there are days when I believe that I belong to things that I want to become. Some moments I feel that my past experiences define me and in the other moments I feel I am defined by the design that I have created of my future. Sometimes I derive recognition about self by the people whom I am associated with and other times people who come to me to sort their problems help me understand myself better. I am sure everyone reading this can somewhere relate to these lines.
When one sets onto the path of discovering
self, zillion thoughts of such kinds crosses one's mind continuously. However,
facing such thoughts isn’t difficult but the ability to decode the clue behind
each thought is.
Just as I started screening each thought and decode them, I felt as if why do I need to decide who I am? Why do I need to belong to anything? Why should I be like something? The answer was simple to understand but difficult to live. So many times in our lives we forget to ‘live’ because we forget to ‘feel’. We seldom 'feel' but always 'think' because we put our heart aside and let our mind do all the working. Thoughts about competition, peer pressure, social pressure, goals, aspirations, future, career, social status and likes always haunts our mind. We do stop our heart from feeling the admiration for others behind the feeling of competition, we overlook friendship behind the peer pressure, we ignore the love behind social pressure, personal admiration behind goals & aspirations and hope behind future planning. Ultimately we miss out on the real emotions at the core and give importance to the end thought.
So lets take a moment, think a little deeper, close our eyes, relish
the silence because there is no way we cannot reach out our real self than reaching our own heart, ‘the place where we belong’.
Keep Smiling and Keep Loving !!!
I can really relate to some of your questions. You might not fully agree with me but let me try to decode some of your questions and share with you some of my experiences as well. Here it goes.... Everyone of us is created with the need to be loved and as a child i was deprived of love. I use to have many questions similar to yours whenever i think about "ME", like who am i? where do i belong? why am i here? and many more. And i tried to define myself through the world which always leaves me disappointed. But as time went by i slowly began to learn and understand some of the things which are crucial in my life. I've learned that no human can satisfy the need for the love that we have inside our heart. True love comes from God and He alone can quench our thirst. I am defined by the one who created me, which is much better than the world's definition of me.
ReplyDeleteMany a times i tried to satisfy myself through my own strength but it always leaves me bruised and unsatisfied which makes me to realize that i can never satisfy myself with my own strength, after all i am a mere human being. I've always tried to live for myself and i made myself the center of my life believing that it was the right thing to do but it made my life more meaningless because i realized that i am like a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow.Like a wave tossed in the ocean. A vapor in the wind.This made me to realize that life is much more worth living if i live not for myself, just as the saying goes 'we make a living by what we get but we make a life by what we give'.
Lastly, I’ve realized that i am precious and i am loved. Knowing the fact that i am precious and being loved gives me the assurance and hope that i was destined to be someone and that i belong to the one who loves me.
One day i know that you will find your quest and i believe that it will be a beautiful one.